Why

Remember how kids ask "why" before everything they do? I feel like "becoming like a little child once again has taken on another meaning in my life. I have been working through Gospel Transformation an amazing devotional. I have been seeing how messed up my heart motivation and thought life really is. I have started to ask myself "why" every time I think about how I want something or even when I am doing something good. So often it feeds off of the two biggest lies that humans believe. 1. That God is not all sufficient. We need something other then God to satisfy. 2. That we are not good enough as we are. We must hide who we are or change ourselves. For example when I go to the store and I want to buys something such as clothing, I ask myself "Why do I want to buy this?" My answer may be, because it will make me be more fashionable or that others will see me in a different way," I know that I am believing these lies. Sometimes I will even be doing something nice for someone and again I will ask why and realize I might be doing this to make myself look better or try to gain status as a "good" person. I may be the first to answer a question and realize I am doing this to pretend to be more righteous then the others. I have really loved to ask the "why" question. It has made me so much more aware of my sin. Sounds like it may be depressing? Actually as I confess these things in the moment to the Lord I feel more at peace because I know that God forgives me. I also feel closer to the Lord as I keep talking to Him in this way and I feel more at peace as I remember I am loved and forgiven by the one who is constantly with me. This process has made me so much closer with the Lord. I know I have so far to go in being pure in all my motivations and thoughts but what joy to walk through this hand in hand with the Lord!